oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh !!!
was having dinner with xuanting zelanie and abigail last night at ps mos burger and they were stressing themselves so much that they stressed me! im 18 years old, turning 19, and i'll be 20 in no time and soon be 30! time flies so fast! zelanie said she only had two weeks to study for her prelims and she died cos couldnt finish studying. competition is so high that people in j1 take SAT?! and there wont be student benefits after graduating!haha. they just kept saying and saying and saying and i couldnt help to be stress too. im beginning to regret that i didnt study as hard as how i should be during the holidays.
and i am SO NOT PREPARED to go to school on wednesday...): i cant face J2, its so scary! and all my subjects are like smiling widely at me cos im always getting U.lol. ahhhhhh..
anyway, i went to meet ci'en after that last night at 9+pm cos it was too early for me to go home!haha. so we went to potong pasir to eat beancurd, then went to the spider web playground. talked about some stuffs, and im so thankful for her company!(: we'll go through school together yeah! :D oh and we saw stars!! i love stars please. okay, took the last train home after that.
wheee! i cant wait for monday cos i'll be meeting waikit and huimin to catch a movie!(: they wanted to study but i managed to psycho them to not study since school is re-opening.haha!
oh i went to sentosa today and im slightly red now! :D and i saw linton!haha.
alrights. im at my neighbour's house now using the com but the MSN got some problem!):
have you ever been involved in a friendship where you gave your best to it and always initiate but the other party seem to not give a two cents worth about it? could it be your friend does not treasure the friendship as much as you do? or perhaps i've been doing far too much? perhaps i need to retreat.. it just cant seem to be the same as any other friendship and i really wonder why.. this is the second friendship which cause me to feel this way. two in a year too.haha. ohwells..
thanks for making me go through all these emotions..
smile (: 10:36 PM
* Tuesday, December 25 *
A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!(: do you know the real meaning of christmas? seriously i think there is no point celebrating if one does not know what the true meaning of christmas is.
anyhows, im at mila's house now with joanne ang! stay over! i know the combination is a bit weird, but WHO CARES? we're all family of God so its totally alright!(: anyway we're like pigging out to the maximum point please.
and rarrrrrhhh. i really cant take it anymore. seriouslyyyy.. why do i even bother about you when you totally dont appreciate at all. it sucks seriously. IT SUCKS. all that i do and this is what i get back in return? bleahhh. i really cant take it anymore..)': God, take this pain away.. well im thankful at least i still have zixin to rant to. THANKS ZIXIN!!!!!!! i think youre the only one who can identify with me.
anyway. BEST FRIEND!!!! TODAY IS CHICKY AND CHICKLY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY!! hahaha. okay that was totally random.
aiya i forgot what i want to blog alr.
oh ya! yesterday was fun! studied with ci'en hannah david and yongle. then ci'en david and me went to chinatown for porridge for supper and we went to explore some hill and this hotel called scarlet hotel. OH MY TIAN the hotel was own-ing please. super nice!!!!!!!
i was supposed to meet my noobster partner ci'en to countdown today but she couldnt make it last minute.
THERE IS A COCKROACH ALERTED AT MILA'S HOUSE!!! ): IT WAS SUPERRRRRRRRRRR BIG. anyway its not killed yet.
christmas party on sat was cool! I LOVE MY CHURCH PLEASE. i love my God more.(: but halfway me and my emo partner-yongle went to the back of the tent and he started emoing.haha.
ALRIGHTS. SORRY FOR THE RANDOM POST.
all i want for christmas is...
smile (: 1:07 AM
* Sunday, December 16 *
am back.(: will blog about camp in this post.
as mentioned to a few of my close ones about camp, truth is the camp was probably one of my worst if not the worst camp in all the camps i have attended. many things happened. i missed the whole of first teaching, i sprained my right ankle one day after my left ankle was healed. huiying fainted twice and was sent to the hospital. i missed almost the whole of resonance. i had to tolerate people. and all the emotions that just couldnt stop coming over me. just the second night of camp during dinner, i just broke down in front of winnie while telling her all that happened. she didnt say much, but i obeyed something that she said, "why not tell God how you feel about all these that are happening to you during p&w later?" i did. i talked to God, telling Him how tiring it is, how i just want to give up and just finish it. of course, God never fail to bring comfort to me. He told me that i will NEVER fall because He will ALWAYS be there to lift me up. well, not many can understand what is exactly going through in my life right now, but you know what? My God never fail to be there for me and i know full well that He understands EVERY SINGLE thing that im going through.
whenever we face problems and need someone to talk to, of course we will want someone to identify with us, understand us and not to tell us off immediately. and im so thankful for xuanting throughout this entire camp and even after camp. thanks for understanding and being there for me. both of us have our own struggles. similar ones too. and im glad youre there for me all the time.(:
alrights time for pictures!(:
JCNA3! :D minghui and me!(: shes nonsensical and i love it.LOL. me and weisong. i have no idea how to describe this photo.HAHA! i dont know whether to hate or love this photo. but ahem! they TIPTOED la. alrights doesnt make much difference also.): yongsheng me samuelRAVI-my new friend.haha. i love this picture too! looks so kiddish. but thanks for the help in mama shop guys!(: elton and me. he's the primary 6 boy i mentioned last time who was shepherding his sheep.(: nicholas weiloong xueyong jianhao me. 9 out of 10 times they call me sandman due to the influence and leadership of their leader.): JC NORTH! :D again! me raphael hannah. he smiles like a girl seriously.HAHA. acting cute! haha the photo looks wrong. but its my fist and weisong's finger. so no worries! hahahaha. yongle weisong kester me hannah. 12 by april 2008! best hair-do award. HAHA. luke jianhao me. i love this picture a lot. mila shiyou me! and i love the iced gems that im holding la!(: shepherd and sheeps. POSERS ALERT.HAHA. bernard and me!!(: i still remember the very first time when i met him. so vulgar and.. i was just scared of him. but God has changed his life! i witness it.(: my leader! and yes, other than ministry stuffs, most of the time i feel like punching him cos he is seriously irritating and always cheat!HAHA. me and hazel.(: me and sinyee! ahhhh whats with puiwah?): HAHA. this girl is CRAZY i promise. she KEEPS laughing at me! friends for eternity.(: she looks scared of me.HAHA. zixin and me.(: me and sathya. he's retarded i promise!HAHA. and he should really stop calling me jolly shandy.): ziying and me!(: thanks for the company for a short while during the last night of camp during resonance. friends for eternity.(: puiwah shiyou me jing'er. this was totally random. this was totally random too. stmargs whoosh! we hate goodbyes..): JC district!!!
i love this family of God so closely knitted unto us youve taken me into your heart and im so glad to be a part of this great family..
heal my heart and make it clean open up my eyes to the things unseen show me how to love like you have love me break my heart for what breaks yours everything i am for your kingdom's cause as i walk from earth into eternity..
OH MY GOSH christmas is like next week and i havent even started with christmas cards!): and whoohoo! christmas service this year is at THR ROCK auditorium at suntec city and there will be a youth christmas party at the palawan beach after that! :D another memorable christmas! :D
smile (: 2:26 PM
* Friday, December 7 *
oh my gosh. my life is like super tough.LOL. (obviously joking.) but..... ): i just went to see the SINSEH laaaa. since yest my ankle hurt. the nerve at the back part there. and so, my ankle is being bandaged now. and guess what the doc say? i cant jump, run etc for one week. its totally fine if i dont have to run, but i cant jump?!?!?!?! then praise and worship how?)': rarrrrrrhhhh. this sucks.
anyway, im still contemplating if i should stay over at ting's house tmr. cos there's quite a number of things to be done still! hmmmm...
alrights. guess ill only blog after camp! the old will be gone and the new WILL COME! :D
ci'en please take care when im away okay! (:
smile (: 9:45 PM
* Thursday, December 6 *
three more days three more days three more days can you feel the excitement in me?!?!?! if cannot also must can! haha.
am currently at cien's house!(: decided to come over and accompany her since her parents are away!
jc service tmr from 5pm-7pm! wheee!
i finally got to meet up with xuanting and talked to her about some stuffs. i made a promise to her and i guess i have to fulfill it. hahahah tough but yeah i will do it. its for m own good anyway. and i must definitely do it before camp.
anyway, ive got some truths about myself about myself which i have to share!
1. for those who know me well enough, i am a quiet person. SERIOUSLY. im not joking la. i know people like tracy kelly and sinyee didnt believe during wfl on monday when they found out that im a quiet person. i talk when there's a need to and to increase the atmosphere of the group.(:
2.i HATE DETEST HATE DETEST HATE cockroaches. flying ones, non-flying ones i hate them ALL. like what i said, i think God created cockroaches when He was either angry or upset.haha.
3. i prefer listening to someone than talking. haha. links to point 1 what.
4. actually im quite tired to think of anymore points. cos the point i wanted to bring across was point one. which ive done. so yeah. hahhaha!
alrights.! i will reply to tags soon. :D
my conviction: problems give us opportunities to grow in a certain area in our lives. so dont give up when you face problems!
the fragility of a woman's heart..
smile (: 12:08 AM
* Sunday, December 2 *
grrrr. my com isnt healed, so i cant go online! sorry peifen!haha. and i doubt my brother will repair my com anytime soon.ohwells.
friday prayer meeting at marine parade was fantastic. it felt so camp-atmosphere~ as quoted by matthias. haha. two sisters-in-christ from the adult group prophecied on me and both are words/vision of encouragement! initially when i prayed, i decided to pray like jabez, and i asked God to give me a word. the word came, and it was FAITHFULNESS. later on, when one of the sister prayed for me, the word was confirmed. she said as long as i have faith as small as a mustard seed, results will definitely come. the second sister gave me a vision. of me in a boat. rowing alone. when i look at the waters, it was sparkling. and when i gazed to the sky, i see lots of stars. God reminded me that He is with me even in times when i feel alone. wah i couldnt helped but to tear after that. God has been so good to me! :D
yesterday was a tiring day. i couldnt sleep the night before. slept at 130am. woke up at 430am with a completely blocked nose.): my throat seemed to be very phlegmy too. haha! is there such a word-phlegmy? lol. i struggled to sleep after that. and i woke up at 8+ am. was supposed to meet shaun for breakfast but he totally pang-sehed. haha! went to nexus at 10am and started preparing for the sales of camp shirt. it was very messy and we ended everything at 8pm. 0.o i was so exhausted after that! went to have dinner at meridien then went fellow-shipping with the rest of JCnorth till 9+ when most of them left, leaving me yongle sherman behind. left home at 10+pm.
matthias called me at 1+am last night and we had a 40minute long chat over the phone. thank you matthias.(: thanks for re-assuring me, and the encouragement you gave. i can really see the effort in you wanting to know and help me. im in this together with you and lets chiong together! dont leave me behind! and i really admire and respect you as a leader too.(:
alrights! will be meeting the JCnorth people at city hall later! to celebrate canice's birthday!:D im excited for it! a pity there's no more stay over.):
the coming week is gonna be a busy one again! but ill go through it and im sure ill be learning a lot too.(:
oh yeah im reading a book now. not really a book la. but yeah. i think the book is really good. jabez prayer for teens.(:
ACTS29 CAMP IS IN SEVENNNNN DAYYYYSSSSSS!!!!! :DDDDD
